humiliated

I was humiliated

Humiliated

mortified

stunned into hate

lashing out with whatever words

crossed my pain ravaged mind

why are they looking at me...

why are they taking all of this so seriously....

why... why... why...

You left me alone with such thoughts

one mind against millions

I thought I had a choice

take life seriously or don't

laugh or scowl

run and hide

or stand up and fight a losing war

the litany of the fatalist

raised disconnected

minimalized

thrust out drugged and ravaged

into your minds

a creature noticing the blood of his birth

hearing the screams of his mother

Why were you surprised when

I cut off the hand that feeds me and ate it?

Stick your hand in the cage of a beaten dog...

I have come to take you home

disbelieved and disheveled and distraught

a dangerous creature born into a morass of myths

Truth whispered into the wind became a storm front

I watch the world unraveling around me with disbelief

either I have been played by man or God?

humiliated

Nothing left to lose but my shame

they leave me alone with my thoughts

a modern monk

a kept monkey

caged angel

an idiot savante poet

who lost control of the plots in his prose

the wreckless destroyer

reluctant to even pick a flower

I did not choose this

I am not the narcisstist with a mirror on his podium

trying to get my hand in your wallet

I am more than you know

a mystical factor no one can predict

You stole from me when your dow was at 1400

lost 6 thousand points for your insult

I understand enough of how this works to see the consequences in the cosmos

God has entered the flesh and nothing is as it was before

Those who know well who I am should heed these words

my forgiveness is not my Father's

What you do to me will cost you

denial alone is not enough to dispell this curse

We stand now on Common Ground before God

Judged not by our power in life but our worth in spirit

The Meek have inhereited the earth