waking up jesus

I have been away for a few months considering my place in your world.   Since waking up to who I AM, I have been trhough many phases.   In the beginning,  I was appalled that people suddenly thought all of my writing was sacred.   I had been writing crazy comedy about serial killers and guy obsessed with building a hamster army.   Now, I can see how  alarmed they were by Jesus writing such prose, but I had no idea who I was at that point.  

Then I began to take relish in giving orders with my writing and seeing the creative, brilliant ways the people responded.   Humbling, very humbling.  

For some reason, my gut kept telling me back then to take no money, and meet no famous people, and just concentrate on your work.   I did not understand this at the time,  and regretted it and still do to some degree.   I had this notion that I was famous and that was not going to go away.   I learned my lesson on that one.   I do not want all the trappings of fame anyways.  My life must always remain about what will make the words flow from my fingers.

The age of 32 when I woke up last time is downplayed in religion.   The truth of what happened back then was forgotten, diliberatly,  when the priests were attempting to make my story fit into the old messiah myths -- myths that long predacte Christianity...... I have been many religions as I lived again trying to ease the human pain and batle the dark one.   The idea that I would leave humans in the control of Satan is one of the dark ones myths.  When I told you that you never know when I will walk up to and ask for a dime.....  how you treat me will be of utmost importance to my Father.

The truth of my humanity never sit well with priests who wanted to be able to say I am special without even trying to explain my teachings, which as often as not would condemn the priests for their actions.

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