WAKING UP JESUS
The ongoing story of Jesus waking up in Chicago, in the body of an agnostic writer,
who is nothing like the Son of God the right-wing Christians watching him expected.
You are welcome to share my work with a link bank... keep getting asked this...
Last time I was here, I told them I would not lead a revolution, that I was there to spread heresy. The crowds thinned. The day they killed me, I marched alone... This time I have returned to find Romes Soldiers Sleeping, content they have killed off the Troublesome Jew. I was surprised how bloody the Indiana boy became as my sword fell again and again ....
In the years since this story began in 2007, my secret fame has spread out from the halls of power that kept me secret all these years, as they waited for the Christ to finally wake up...
I try to imagine their anticipation.
Remember a dream I had in my twenties about running thru Chicago screaming that Christ was coming back, and man oh man was I happy... a cloud came through the middle of the skyscrapers above me, in the thin strip of blue above Dowtown State street, and I expected to see Christ... instead, just a bunch of musicians painted up like Ziggy stardust.
I surprised my keepers. They thought they had me figured out from the Bible. If that book could have told you everything, there would be no need at all for me.
Jesus: "I have become Known across this planet as a dangerous man with a growing force of hidden followers who value my orders more than life itself. A prophet of war. Once and future King in a court of shadows. Life and death in my hands every damn day. I ROAR, your most mighty shit themselves and run. I make myself a known threat, so I can try to negotiate what otherwise requires bullets and blood. I am here to free the enslaved in body and mind. I cannot be defeated. When the Will of God and The WILL OF THE PEOPLE ARE ONE, NO FORCE ON EARTH CAN STOP US!"
Sunday, December 06, 2009
update on my thinking about my political situation
Mostly my own pain. First emotional, and now physical. It is hard to concentrate on things outside oneself when your own body is betraying you. I have somewhat accepted all of this now... and really felt I was on my way to finding my voice, and my following, before the events surrounding the radio show, and my horrid infamy, derailed my vision of the future. I figured once I had the time to write and started producing massive amounts of words, that I would find myself a big agent and take my place, however small or large. Now, after learning that I am pretty much going to be punished forever for daring to be the lightening rod that drove the mad events from 2007 to.... well, I suppose some would say I am still behind some mischief. When I hear my words echoed -- criticized, actually -- by no less an icon than Mayor Daly, I realize that I am still being read by a group of radicals who are hoping that I will come out of my cave and protest.
My problem now is that I have said things during the 'bugged' period that are far, far from what I believe. The pain, the mental hell, the disconnect from the world, the craziness of being shown a bit of the undergroud world... I was never more overwhelmed in my entire life.
As an aside to this wonderful naval gazing, last night I pondered again why I was shown certain films during this campaign. One in particular was very odd. I was watching something on tv about Nazi's, and they were showing the holocaust, when suddenly Hitler's face appeared, and a calm voice saying, "This was not my vision." I cannot remember much more of it. It stands out because apologists for Hitler are not exactly something you see on us tv. This probably harkens back to a poem I wrote asking if people were still nazi, and still white? I was trying to say, get over it... come into the fold of humanity, and accept everyone. Other people took my words how they would. I have no control over what people do with my words. I would have, had they not isolated me into the illusionary prison that surrounds me.
Can you imagine my situation? Here I am a writer, who considers himself disconnected from society, just some boof writing crazy humor mostly to amuse myself, and suddenly I find myself writing revolutionary poetry, and spinning a war of the worlds scenario that took certain parts of the world by storm. I had no idea any of that was inside of me. The Jesus voice is whole nother story, in a way.... though i can think of few ways to destroy the credibility and thinking of a person than to brainwash them into thinking they are a deity.
I was so convinced of this thought that I was willing to die for my beliefs. A lot of people followed me up that walk to calvary, some to mourn and others to throw stones. People who are not in the loop on this are never going to believe me... pretty much stealing any thunder that may be rumbling around in my work.
I have done about everything I can to make peace with the forces that feel I am their enemy. Other than political differences, I find common ground with most people. Politics is certainly not everything. I thought they were for awhile...