reinventing the day

a bedraggled loner decides to risk it all

I have not been writing as much in waking up jesus. The religious dream scares me again. The madness I so blithly set about defining betrays me. Consumes me, takes me into it's fold, tries to hide me in their Holy Robes, offers me gems like forgiveness and an ever-after for the small price of intellectual credibility.

I fought to keep alive the self that once more has control of my typing fingers

to preserve whatever I am

despite any onslaught that tried to convince me without facts.

The Jesus issue is moot in a way. I was the first to tell you not to worship me, and not to pray to me, and to expect me to be human and flawed. I offered my better qualities as well. Part of the psychological game, using what fits into the narrative that does the job...

A lot of writer's want to influence people, to have a say on the issues of their times, to use their talents for the purposes of politics, as well as sheer art for art's sake. This is as close as I want to come to preaching. Every day I read the cult news... one of the first things, I hit the Rick Ross Bookmark and see articles from all over world describing the onslaught -- yes, onslaught... of cults operating openly, lucratively, and with no signs of giving up their use of forced labor, enslavement masked as modern, psycho-drama imploded sci-fi.

I have had powerful experiences with the Mystical, but nothing to ever tell me that following another human to any great extent was the way to live. I know... why would Jesus think about following someone else?

Well, more importantly, I would ask.... is why Jesus is telling you to think for yourself? Mostly because other people want desperatly to think for you, and will do so if you are not exceedingly careful.

The cults... the wars... the Rev. Moon's connections to Nazi's came up in my reading today. Nazi's working to kill those commies in south america. How sickening. To think his backgroundin Intelligence, the south korean central intelligence agency, it is no wonder Moon has led his cult to the right wing in the world, who are certainly going to stay with his agenda to fight communism. Now they own the Washington Post. Cults get huge. And you never know who is really pulling the strings. This Moon Character is obviously and intelligent agent.

There is a link between cults and intelligent agencies that is seldom explored, but in the years I have been reading and studying them, I have found interesting hints at this shit. You never know?

I think this because there are remarkable similarities between a lot of cults, with them going through the same stages, preaching the same kind of shit, using all the same brain washing techniques.

Unless you think that all of these guys studied up on how to run a cult on their own, and then applied it, then there is someone else behind at least some of these cults. Why not? Certainly religious movements and what not front for the CIA. An article I read showed a photo of the author with page after page of names for front Companies for the MOON people.